Change

Every time I think I know what the topic is Holy Spirit (HS) changes it and we move into a different direction.

I was sitting here making edits to my website and after too long of a time (months to be exact) I was able to finally make my page stop scrolling!! I said thank you Jesus! I didn't know how to explain to my husband that the webpage kept scrolling besides "I can't get the page to stop moving". I wasn't liking that there was a large black area and empty space on the mobile version of my website.

I love WIX for showing the mobile vs the desktop version, this way I can see what each viewer sees. I am "I prefer to do things on my laptop versus my phone" ! I like to get the full experience that my laptop provides because on mobile sites you don't always get the full experience of the website.

As I was changing my background I noticed HS was working on me. The reason that this blog is named Garden of A Rose is b/c when I 1st started this almost 6 years ago I envisioned a place where I could grow and build. I decided to change my background, not only to the Rose flower but to an array of flowers. As I was changing the background HS spoke to me and said "there are variations of you but that happens as you change". I often don't think about the person I used to be but I should! Not in a sense of cringe but in a sense of thank you Jesus for changing me and bringing me out of certain things. I don't look at my past and think that it's all bad but I do thank God for helping me grow and creating this newer variation of myself.

HS spoke to me again when I looked in the mirror. He stated that I am currently a different variation of myself. I had some boho box braids in for 6 weeks so I look different because I took my hair down. I washed and deep conditioned my hair and I'm back to being a curly girl. Even though my outside looks different God has changed me from the inside out. As I have gotten older, I have matured in different ways, I have more moles now, some places sag a little more than they once did, my weight has gone up, but most importantly my walk with Christ is different! I now look to Christ to fill in any gaps that I might have. My off seasons aren't as long, and I feel lost w/o God. I feel like something is missing when me and Jesus aren't talking. I don't like to spend my days w/o HIM.

Could you imagine if God changed up on us? What if he had an attitude that took days, months, or even years to change, someone who always took offense to everything you said? Sound familiar? Does that sound like you or maybe the old you?!

Hebrews 13:8

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

However, we aren't the same as Christ even though we strive to be like him on the daily, we still come up short. We aren't perfect. Thank you Jesus for your mercy and grace upon us.

I've been on and off this post for what 1-4 or even close to 7 days at this point! And the more I sit HS hits me, I have to do this this the proper way. I wanted to take my time and feelings with this but then I remembered that I don't have to rush and it doesn't have to be perfect but it does have to be what God said it's supposed to be! I put it off also for the reason that I didn't feel like it was good enough but here we are flaws and all! We're exactly where God needs us to be!

Another thing that I wanted to mention is that we have to want to change! Like I have stated before we can't just sit there and pray and do nothing! Now if God told you to sit and do nothing that's different. We need to have action behind our prayers. God is waiting onYOU! Earlier this week I saw a reel on IG and the woman stated something along the lines of "what you're looking for is magic. I never opened my door after praying for money and opened my door and there was a bag of money on my doorstep". How many times do we dream and fantasize like we're Disney Princesses? I know I did! Especially when I first got married! I wanted my husband to change but thought it was ok for me to stay the same! I thought that the only problem was that he didn't listen to me. Obviously after time & change I don't believe that anymore nor do I believe "happy wife happy life".

Even now I have come to the realization that God CAN DO IT but he's not going to, just because that's what we want! What is the lesson in us just getting what we want? Do you just give your kids any and everything at the toy store? I would think not. The issue is that we don't want to wait to see what the lesson is we just want instant results. There is strength in waiting but we don't want to wait we just want microwavable results. Ever hear your food cracking, popping, and screaming and when you bite in the middle it's cold after you take it out of the microwave? That's why God makes us wait to ensure that our blessing is fully cooked through and that we learn through the pain and suffering. We have to have the right heart while in our waiting season.

I had been praying for some things and God had given me my answer last week but I didn't realize it until today! Look for God in everything that you do! I promise that he is going to answer you but you have to seek him and be ready to listen and posture yourself to hear and move when he calls you!

Change is necessary to help you grow! Idk if a crab is considered a fish or not and I don't feel like looking it up at the moment but I can tell you that a crab changes it's shell every so often to make sure that their shell is the perfect fit. Shrimp as well go through a similiar process except it's called the molting process.

According to Google molten is- of an animal shed old feathers, hair, or skin to make way for a new growth.

We should be going through a molten process as well! When we allow HS to change us we change so that we can be better people for Jesus, our family, spouse, our children, etc.

Over the last few weeks I realized that some things needed to change in order for me to be better. I thought that a schedule was for people who needed it and that I just wasn't one of them. It wasn't until my kids were staying up as late as me and I wasn't having any downtime to myself or for my husband. Right there a change was needed! I need my kids to go to bed at a decent time in their OWN bed so that I can actually sleep, be with my husband, and get to the things that I couldn't when my kids are awake. Having a routine helps you keep things in order. Our God is a God of routine and order not chaos 1 Corinthians 14:33. The scripture was paraphrased but I put it in it's complete form down below.

Another change that I needed to make was to take out excess sugar from my diet. I realized that as I have gotten older I just can't do some of the things that I used to! I noticed that after breastfeeding I just couldn't get rid of these extra 3 pounds so now it's no eating out, no sugar in my tea or my coffee, & no desserts. There has to be sacrifices made to get to where you need to go. For me that looks like no extra sugar for a little to slim down my belly oh and more ab exercises.

Ask HS to reveal to you where you need to change and make an effort to actually do it. Change is hard but it doesn't have to be because you have me but more importantly you have Jesus Christ to guide you.

I recommend a fast if you need to hear HIM more clearly! Lay it all at his feet! Come to him as you are! If you need assistance in fasting please reach out to me!

My apologies for not greeting you but sometimes God puts it on my heart to get right to the point and I have to deliver it HOT & FRESH like a Lil Caesar's Pizza!

Scriptures used:

Hebrews 13:8- Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.

1 Corinthians 14:33- For God is not a God of disorder but of peace

As always I pray that you found this post to be useful and that you share it with someone that it will bless.

Changing is a process but once it's done it's truly life altering and beautiful!